Bad Days Happen

What a crappy day. First, I found out that San Juan is not going to "let" Zoe play in the Independence Cup. Why? Because they are on break. I'm pretty sure I'm paying THEM. Until I've got a college scholarship or a shoe contract, I think I'm still her agent. Seriously? Who denies a 9 year old an opportunity to play...? Ugh. Marek is in New York which is about as far as he can be. The time change doesn't allow me any time to call and rant. I'm sure he's relieved but it leaves him out of the loop. I've got two friends battling cancer right now. The black belt test is scheduled on the day of Marek's best friend's wedding which means none of my family will be at my test. Then, today, KJN Gary teamed me up with Rachel to partner up, telling Andee that "We're not sure if she's going." This was a devastating blow to my fragile psyche. Andee and I have been working really well together. We nailed the last test together and her personality and laser focus are super compatible with my clumsy dog, beat-everybody- into-submission, MMA style. Needless to say, I was BUMMED. I even considered putting off until April. Why? Because I feel I can go hard with Andee and we bring out the best in each other. I know our KJN's can get us ready, and I want that Best Tester T-Shirt. I don't want to just squeak by to get my black belt. I want to nail it.  Today, I saw disappointment in Andee's eyes and it brought me down because if there is any chance of her going, she is going to have to believe she can go and bring her A game everyday.
Today we also got our fitness prescription: 30 burpees, 50 push-ups, 50 sit-ups, and 50 Triangle Push-ups. Yesterday's workout almost killed me. Now that I know Tuesday's are long AND I gotta crank out all of the above, I'll be reworking my schedule. I went to KB this morning which is always fun and of course, KJN Jon made us do pull-ups for a grand total of 20 for the day. Add on 5lb ankle weights and that's a big day. I was so hungry when I got home, I made 2 scrambled eggs and put them on a gardenburger for max protein ingestion. It was just what my body needed. Still managing 3 liters of water each day. It's a little harder with rainy weather but soon, the rain will leave and we will be stuck with 100 degree heat. Anyway, I fell asleep and napped for two hours after eating. Before I knew it, it was time to wake up and go back to my 445 class which was extra long. We worked fighting system again and I worked with Rachel. It was not the same. I went home with my tail between my legs wondering how I was going to wait 10 more months. Ugh.