Tell me why...

I don't like Mondays. Post-Mudder Mondays are hard to face. Generally, it takes at least three days to recover and day 3 is usually the worst which is Tuesday. However, Monday sucks. I got nothin. Despite drinking water, stretching, eating my vegetables, I am worked. I just want to lay around all day. Instead, I got to fight with my 11 year-old who is still reeling from the loss of her Grandfather. Stella has chosen to make this Monday extremely difficult at a time when I am physically worked. It takes all I have mentally to keep calm and carry on. Today was a true test of my mental focus. Parenting, in and of itself is a sport. I could feel a greater sense of irritability and I wanted to jump straight to anger when Stella challenged me. It was all I could do to keep it together. On top of that, my body is craving sugar. Chocolate, to be specific. And I want a cup of coffee. Neither of these is good for me right now. I try to avoid both caffeine and sugar. I allow myself one cup of coffee per week on Sunday, without milk. This week, I didn't have it due to recovery, which is probably contributing to my state of mind. After chemo, I realize what chemicals can do to our bodies and our immunity. I have to take meds to keep my cancer at bay which is a chemical nightmare all its own. Despite my delayed onset muscle soreness, I choose not to take Ibuprofen primarily because if I can recover without it, I will recover stronger. However, the catch is that it will take longer to recover which affects future training. Nonetheless, I am not convinced a batch of vitamin I is going to save me, and while black belt is the goal, immunity takes priority.
Today, we worked on sticks again. Disarms specifically. I'm feeling relatively confident about sticks but would like another week to work on them. So much curriculum, so little time. KJN announced we were working on forms next. Of course, because my legs are toast and what better time to work on lower stances than day 3 of recovery. I would take the week easy but the following week, the studio is closed. I will take some time then and use it to focus on the DVD and Life Skills memorization. This week is a sufferfest. There's value in it. I just need to be careful not to get injured.