Tragedy

It's Friday before TM. I can hardly sit still. We put in a climbing wall this week and I just want to play on it but it zaps energy fast. I needed to lay low and conserve. They posted the TM map today. No rings. I'm so sad because we trained the rings all last month. Such is life. There are two new obstacles that look totally easy. One of which is another wall climb. I've been training walls all spring. I'm excited to flash those. In fact, I'm excited to flash the whole thing, monkey bars and all. Hoping I did enough pull-ups.

Tonight we got tragic news. Marek's Mom's husband, and grandfather to my kids was found dead in their swimming pool tonight. He was 68. The girls are devastated. I grappled with going to TM at all. Marek says go. girls say go, but is it selfish? I am as committed to my TM teammates as I am to my family but family comes first. Not sure if I'm doing the right thing. I guess I'll know at the halfway point. It's so surreal. Marek is with his Mom now (it's almost midnight) and I just got the kids to lay down. It's going to be a long night. I'm off the beach at o' dark thirty.

And as if the world is conspiring against my TM success, Lori just told me she is sick and can't go to the event. What a bummer. I was hoping to do it with her this year. I'm not sure if I can rally for next year. I need to get tougher with every birthday....However, if I do make it four more years, I can call myself Kwan ja mudder! Ha ha.